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good intentions

alipyper - G's "First Day of College" at BYU

I want to start blogging again, but I’m lazy. It’s so much easier to post a picture on Instagram with a short comment and move on. But I like having a space online where I can document my projects and speak my mind a little bit more, so I find myself wanting to blog again. But with everything in my life right now, I want to feel very clear about what I’m doing and why I’m doing it. And I want to feel proud of what I’m doing, and share it with others, but I don’t ever want to come across as bragging.

alipyper - G at BYU

I posted a picture of {G} on Instagram yesterday and when she saw it later in the afternoon, she said, “Mom, this is a total brag post! You’re totally bragging!” And a very dear friend, who I value for calling it like it is, commented on my personal Facebook page in a way that made me understand that my post had crossed the line. So I find myself wanting to tell the real story of why this particular picture and caption ended up sounding “braggy,” and more importantly why it bothered me when I was called out for it. But do I really want to reveal to the world the deep insecurities as a parent that I feel, the heartbreaking (to me) recent parenting incident that nearly pushed me over the edge psychologically, and the need to try and reassure myself that my children will succeed in their lives in spite of me and my fantastic ability to hamper and impede their spiritual, emotional, intellectual, and physical progress because I myself have almost no clue of what I’m doing personally and as a parent?

{On a side note, my dear friend – who also happens to cut my hair – is the oldest child in her family and her parents lovingly call her their “burnt pancake” because as the oldest she’s was the one they were trying to figure things out with. Which is funny, but if she’s a “burnt pancake” what are all the rest of us?? She’s amazing!}

alipyper - Beautiful G at BYU

I was raised to believe that “bragging ” or “tooting your own horn,” is in essence “taking credit where none is deserved” and is unseemly and ungodly. And maybe it is. But maybe it isn’t. Shouldn’t labeling someone sharing something good or amazing in their life as “bragging” be called out as tragic in and of itself? Shouldn’t we rejoice with each other in our successes and the things that bring us joy or that we’re proud of? Shouldn’t seeing someone else’s good fortune or blessings bring to us feelings of profound gratitude and joy at God’s mercy towards them? I obviously am not on that level of enlightenment because if I’m honest, I tend to judge others who come across as “braggy” harshly, which explains why being called out for my bragging or being sensitive to others perceiving me as bragging is so painful.

So where’s the line – or is there a line? While I was having a good cry in the shower this morning, my thought was to delete my Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter accounts and turn off this blog. But is that the answer? Maybe. Maybe not. (I obviously don’t think so because I just conveniently provided a link for you to visit my Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter accounts) The Mr. and I believe and have tried to teach the kids that running away from things that scare you or that you don’t understand or that you can’t manage is not always the answer. There are absolutely things you should run away from, but most of the time the answer is to learn how to manage these things by educating yourself, getting help if you need it, and reaching out to others instead of isolating yourself. So, I’m currently looking for a BA support group (Braggers Anonymous). Will you help me find one?

featured on darlyblog

alipyper - darlybird blog post creative home alipyper

I was featured on Darlybird‘s Darlyblog yesterday. You should go check it out! Thank you Rachel and Allison for the opportunity!

I know that I value creativity in my own life, but it was kind of hard to determine if I had been successful in creating an environment in my home that encouraged creativity in my children. In some ways I think I’ve been successful, and in other ways I think that I’ve been really selfish and unsuccessful. In any case, it was really good for me to think  and write about it. And I’m realizing just now that I never asked my kids what they thought! I’ll do that today. Should be interesting to hear what they think.

{g} gets an article in the local paper

 alipyper g daily herald article

We’re so excited that {G} has an article about her in the Saturday May 24th local newspaper! A reporter came to the house with a photographer and asked us both about the JSA Junior Diplomat Summer Study Abroad program that she’s been accepted to. You can read the article here.

Fundraising is still in full swing around here. Since returning from San Diego, I’ve been gathering more donated items to sell at our garage sale tomorrow. We’re also selling many personal items that have been sitting untouched in storage for the last 4 years. It’s good to let go and clean out. And if it gets us closer to {G} flying to China, then we’re thrilled. If you’re local and want to come to the garage sale, go to craigslist or to KSL Classifieds to learn where and when and what. The kids are selling kettle corn too!

alipyper boxes stacked and ready

alipyper boxes in the freezer

{K} said it was okay to sell his cookie dough (Well, my cookie dough, really. My own recipes, with the very best ingredients – no scrimping there! – mixed up in my own kitchen) to help {G} raise the money we need, so last week it was cookie dough central at our house. Thank you to everyone that ordered a box! Truly! Last year, to help with {K}’s soccer fees, I thought I might try to sell my own cookie dough. {K} and I decided which flavors to make and then he helped me put together the boxes and affix the labels. The process went really well, and now I have people ask me quite regularly when I’m selling cookie dough next. I’m glad I was able to sell as many boxes as I did to help {G}!

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Cheers!

One Line a Day…

I started writing one line a day in this nifty little book January 1st. It has a spot to write a few words every day for 5 years. I’m learning about editing (there’s not a lot of space!) and I’m trying to focus on recording special moments each day rather than just writing down what I did and I have to say that I’m enjoying the mental exercise of it.

A few tidbits that I recorded: May 4, {G} came home excited to learn how to say “Holy unicorn!” in Japanese; January 24, {K}, who was violently ill, said to me, “Mom, help me get through this.”; June 16, {I} asked if it was okay to meet all his friends at the movie theater without a parent (teen-age moment).

I think I’ll keep going :)

alipyper likes to write

I’ve forgotten so many funny, sad and wonderful things that have happened over the years because I haven’t written them down. 2012 is the year that I will write down something EVERY DAY. No matter how trivial or mundane. Maybe I’ll change my brain sieve into a brain trap. Or maybe I’ll laugh in five years at the silly things I wrote down. One line a day is do-able. Right?

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